So, I’m working on manifestation. This is something that I haven’t really done intentionally before. I’ve always known that if I needed something, the Divine would provide when I couldn’t imagine how it would work out.
It’s very hard for me to admit that even though I am very happy in my life, I feel that there is something missing. I have a home, food, clothes, friends and family. My job, and my ability to help others through a variety of different ways.
Talking to a friend late last night, I was finally able to say what I have been wanting to say, but felt that I didn’t deserve to say. Why couldn’t I just be happy with what the Divine provided? Simple, because it is one of our life lessons to learn how to “ask”. Ask and you shall receive.
I grew up with a dark past and felt that asking, for myself, was wrong to do. I’d always tell others, “If you just ask, it will happen. If not, it’s not the right time.” But I could never do it for myself. My Guides have tried to help me by making me do writings. “What makes me happy”, “What do I need in my life”, and “What do I want in my life”. My list of what makes me happy was very long. My needs were short, and my wants, zero. Why? Because I already have what I need, so why would I want anything?
It has been a hard lesson to learn, that even though my needs may be being met on a certain level, they are not being met on another level, and only I can make the decision to change that. I have to open up my chakras and realize and manifest what it is that I WANT in my life, otherwise there will always be that open gap in my life that will never be filled.
Definitely a hard pill to swallow. I do feel that I am being weak by asking. Is this a past life issue? Is this a this life issue? Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel that I am not deserving of such a wonderful experience that I am always so happy that other’s experience?
I am taking today, to declare, that I am worthy of that part of happiness. That I am worthy of asking for what I am manifesting. And that I understand that only I can make this choice. That the Divine will provide me with the basics in life, but it is up to ME to ASK for what I WANT and what I NEED in this life.
I am sending my request via voicemail to the Divine. Hopefully he checks his messages 😉